A little reflection.

I have been having a rough time being motivated the last few days, but today especially.  I made myself get up and straighten up the living room, but it wasn’t that bad so I opted not to take any pictures!  Our schedules are pretty wonky.  MPP started a new job yesterday.  He gets up at 3AM, so I stay up and make him breakfast and then drive him to work.  I slept while he was at work and it wasn’t very restful.  I think I also may be coming down with something in addition to my allergies, so my head feel weird, but certainly nothing a couple ibuprofen can’t handle.

But these issues with lacking motivations aren’t new.  I think it all comes down to laziness and procrastination.  There’s always that, “I’ll start tomorrow.” being chanted in the background, but tomorrow keeps coming and going and they’ll continue to do that.  At some point I need to hop on the wagon.

These are the things I’ve decided need to happen during the month of November.

-MPP will need to learn to drive and get a drivers license.
-I will need to talk to my student loan sharks at least once every two weeks.
-I will need to plan out meals – nothing too fancy.
-I need to spend 1 hour per day on the dining room – pictures of that disaster tomorrow.
-I will straighten up the house every night before I go to bed.
-I will do the kettlebell every other day.
-I will do a 30 day Pilates challenge.
-I will walk for 30 minutes every other day.

I know it seems like a lot but I know with some serious honesty with myself, I can do it.

And even as I type that, I glance over to my diary.  On January 13, 2002, two months before my 19th birthday, I wrote that I hoped to lose some weight and be 170 lbs by my birthday.  I have never reached that goal, not even in nearly 11 years.  Dotted through my diary over the last 11 years is a struggle with weight with very little initiative being taken.  I’m tired of being this person. I don’t want to live my 30s like I did my 20s.


A few more days of October left!

It took me a few days to get up the gumption to clean the bathroom, which is pretty bad.  This is the sort of thing I’m trying to nip in the bud!  I guess it’s long beyond the bud now.  Procrastination is the noxious weed of bad habits.  I wasn’t feeling well but I know deep down I was feeling well enough to do it.

The before pictures are on the left and the afters are on the right!


It’s hard to keep things clean.  I envy people who are naturally good at it.  My husband isn’t the most tidy person either, and my mom stays with us and she’s a lot like me in that she’ll make huge messes and then take her time to clean them up.  That’s a really bad habit that all three of us really need to break.  Unlike them, the chaos stresses me out, so much that I will usually clean up after everyone else.  What I need to do is get into the habit of cleaning up after myself immediately after I make a mess, and then a couple days a week sweep and once every couple of weeks mop.  I want to get into good habits before I have children.

Mister Picky Pants starts his new job today.  He has to get up at 3AM and be there by 4.  I’m still up at 10 ’til 3AM because he went to bed at 7PM and I didn’t want to disturb him when I got tired.  I took that opportunity to do all the laundry and clean up that bathroom!  I’ll sleep until he gets off work and then I want to work on building a menu from the things in my cabinets!

A clean kitchen!

Minus the fridge being cleaned out, I’m saying my kitchen is clean!  It took most of the day and I am glad to have it finished.  What a disaster it had become.  On the left side is the before shot, and the right side is the after shot.  There are some minor details that need to be fixed (fixing that cabinet door that won’t open, cleaning the fridge, fixing underneath the sink) but it’s actually clean.  I think I will straighten it up on Sundays, Wednesdays and Saturdays to keep on top of it!





One week until November.

I can’t believe how fast this year went by.  I had an awful 2012 so I have to admit that I’m glad to see it go.

Why was this year so horrible?  I’ve been sick most of it!  In February I learned the hard way that sweetened condensed milk has more lactose in it than most things.  In March I caught a really horrible cold.  In May I worked so much that I only took one day off, and by June my immune system practically failed when I got sinusitis.  I had sinusitis so bad that I couldn’t even sit upright or stand for long.  For the first time ever, I had severe allergies because of the awful drought, and now I have to take a nasal steroid and antihistamines every day.  But hey, I feel way better than I did this time three months ago.

One thing I had really wanted to do over the summer was work on my physique.  I want to be stronger.  I can barely lift more than 30 lbs right now.  I don’t necessarily want to be really thin, but I do want to be muscular.  To help with this, I bought a 30 lb kettlebell.  I am starting this blog to keep track of my kettlebell journey!  But there’s going to be more to this blog than just that.

I’m breaking it into three categories.

1. Physical health – This will mean exercising daily and sticking to a proper diet.  I’ve become very interested in ‘slow carb’  and would actually like to work on a recipes blog for others wanting to start this lifestyle.  My husband and I began doing the SCD (slow carb diet) back in January, and were very happy, but one problem we had was getting burned out on the same meals over and over, and I wasn’t able to find a cookbook specifically for the SCD.  If you know of one, please let me know!  As for exercise, I want to use the kettlebell every other day.  The two-handed kettlebell swing is excellent but I would like to learn to do more.

2. Financial health – My husband (who I’ll refer to as Mister Picky Pants or MPP) lost his job back in August, and we’ve both been having an extremely difficult time finding work since then.  I had a job interview last week with the local junior high school that I thought went really well, but I wasn’t hired.  MPP was hired at a gas station and will work around 20 hours per week, which will be a huge help.  He doesn’t start until next week though, which means his first paycheck is around 3 weeks away.  I owe nearly $100k in student loans, and unfortunately had a cosigner for around $30k of them. Needless to say he hates me now, but I just wasn’t able to find work after I graduated college nearly three years ago.  In the meantime, I have to do as much as I can to keep us afloat.

3. Mental health – This part is tricky. It’s very difficult not to feel beaten down when job interviews that seemingly go well end without employment, or when I miss several days of being able to exercise, or when my house is a massive disaster.  To get my mental health on track, I will start by cleaning the house.  My mom moved in with us and her stuff is everywhere, and not in a good way.  I feel like I’m living in a storage unit sometimes, and coming home after a rough day to such a thing isn’t healthy!  I also need to work on structure, meaning I need to go to bed and wake up at the same time every day.  I need to stick to my goals.  I need to be tough!

To begin, I’m going to spend the next four days getting my house in order.  It’s a pretty major disaster right now, and once it’s cleaned up, I need to make a schedule that will help me keep it tidy for my mental health.

Here we go…